It is Thursday the 5Th. I thought today would be the day for sure- I thought yesterday would be the day for sure! Still here.
I was 3-4cm dilated and 60% effaced yesterday. That is crazy. I suspected that I would be at 4 and I thought for sure he would say that we needed to go ahead and check me in- that labor was imminent. He didn't say that. He said I could walk around for another week like this!
I said, "Does that HAPPEN?" and he said yes. I said, "WHY!!"
He gave no good answer. If I go another week- which I won't! I refuse. My weight will surely reach a number that I have worked so hard to avoid if I go another week...but if I do, he said that we could discuss induction at that point. I think I can just wait it out. I have tried so hard to stay positive and to be excited about every week that Tucker weighs a little more and will come into the world a little more alert. This is what I prayed for. I am ready now, though. I am growing impatient.
I'm not miserable. Some women look like they are in pain their last month. My ankles were the size of softballs at 36 weeks with Madeline and I was beyond waddling. I couldn't sleep anymore and life had just become unbearable. I'm fine right now. I still have ankles, my wedding ring is still loose, and my shoes still fit.
I'm just ready to see him. To hold him. To kiss him. Anytime...
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you shouldn't have said that your wedding rings still fit. oh wait, no...you said it is "still loose". even worse.
ReplyDeleteit's going to be tough to get sympathy from me now. i mean, come on...mine stopped fitting sometime around 30 weeks. yes, seriously.
no, really...i know you're ready to see him. i think of you every single day. all of you. he will come when he's ready. and when he gets here, he'll be so big and healthy and alert. and he'll probably snatch the nearest book out of your hand and start reading or something. maybe even lean over and paint madeline's toes or something :)
hang in there. i love you.